Because Fat girls don't get laid.

154 lbs!

Mon, 12 Jul 2010 13:11:39 -0400

I LOST A WHOLE POUND! BY DOING NOTHING!

lol but really. It’s probably just water weight but thats all okay!

I was a nasty little devil yesterday, I had to work so clearly i was STARVING so i chowed down some frenchtoast (shame on you) and counterbalanced with some fruit. ilovefruit. I then hit the mall, always a good walking excercise. It was hilarious to see people watching the soccer game and be picking out thongs and hearing “AHHHHHHH” thinking somebody was shot or something! I didn’t eat all day but just happened to run into every man I’ve ever been in love with within a 2 hour time span. (there’s only two of them but still, AWKWARD!) After which i needed to eat, i was STARVED so i ran to burger king and got a BK Fish with fries and a green tea. DAMMIT! I was on such a kick by my eating habits are awful!

Today I woke up extremely early for being up will 2 AM and took a pilates class, power walked on the treadmill (i do not run.) for 20 minutes, biked for 4 minutes (cool down), did 50 reps of upper body work and 30 calf muscle exercises.

Food wise all i’ve had is a grande caramel iced coffee with half and half and a banana and some water. I’m catching lunch at my restaurant with my gays in about a half hour and I’ll get a salad, water, and some bread :) I may or may not take a dance class tonight, I’m for sure going tomorrow night, we’ll see where the night takes me!

Still a dress size 10,

The Bitch.

ABOUT ME: The Bitch.

Sat, 10 Jul 2010 19:45:34 -0400

Appearance

[x ] I have / had piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[i change it however i’d like] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x 3 of them ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I’ve had/have braces.
[ x] I have more than two piercings.

Embarrassment

[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[x ] I’ve laughed ’til some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x ] I’ve had my pants rip in public.

Health

[ ] I’ve gotten stitches.
[ x] Broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
[x ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I’ve had serious surgery.
[ ] I’ve had chicken pox.

Traveling

[x ] I’ve been to Florida.
[x] I’ve driven / ridden over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[ ] I’ve been to Canada.
[ ] I’ve been to Cuba.
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I’ve been to Ottawa.
[ ] I’ve gone to Sudbury.
[x ] I’ve been to the Caribbean.
[ ] I’ve been to Europe.

Experiences

[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[x ] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[ x] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[ x] I’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[x ] I’ve been skiing.
[x] I’ve been in a musical.
[ x] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.

Relationships

[x] I’m single.
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced.
[ ] I don’t believe in love

Honesty / Crime

[ ] I’ve been arrested.
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[] I’ve snuck out.
[x] I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[ ] I’ve been in a fist fight.

Death and Suicide

[x] I’m afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I’ve seen someone / something dying.
[x ] Someone close to me has attempted / committed suicide.
[ ] I’ve planned my own suicide before.
[ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

[ x] I own over 5 rap CD’s.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime / manga.
[ x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collected comic books.
[x ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on E-Bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie

Random

[x ] I can sing well.
[ ] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] Don’t kill bugs/don’t like to
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[x] I care about grammar.
[ ] I love spam.
[ ] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[] I like white chocolate.
[x ] I bite my nails.
[x ] I’m good at remembering faces.
[ x] I’m good at remembering names.
[x ] I’m good at remembering dates.
[x] I honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All my answers were totally honest

People

[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[ ] call me fat
[] say I’m skinny
[ ] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[] force me to eat
[] say I eat too much
[] wish I’d eat more

Family

[ x] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[ ] I’ve run away from home.
[ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I’ve had children.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.

Relationships

[x] I’m single
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[x ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[x ] I miss someone right now.
[ x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced
[xxxx] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ xxxxx] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[ ] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

[ ] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I’ve been kissed in the rain.
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[x ] I have kissed a stranger.

Bad times

[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[ x] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty
[x ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression at some point
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I am / have been addicted to self harm.
[x] I’ve woken up crying
[x] I’ve lost weight
[x] I’ve gained weight
[ ] I’m at my thinnest
[x ] I’m at my biggest
[] I’ve lost weight and kept it off
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[x ] I weigh myself daily
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[ ] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[] I’ve skipped a meal
[x] I’ve thrown food away
[] I’ve spat food out
[x ] I’ve taken diet pills
[ ] I’ve used laxatives
[] I’ve purged
[x] I exercise
[x] I exercise so I can eat
[ ] I work out secretly
[] I work out daily
[] I exercise to counteract eating
[] I’ve fainted from exhaustion

I’ve Done

[x ] Weed
[ x] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[ x] Diet pills
[] Pain killers
[x ] Anti-depressants
[ ] Ecstasy
[ ] LSD
[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed
[ ] Cocaine
[ ] Other
] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I have a diet blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
[x] I’m doing this for me
[ x] I’m doing this for someone
[x] I’m doing this to prove myself

skinnyforcollege: (via thin4thewin) this girl is so hot! im...

Sat, 10 Jul 2010 19:38:11 -0400

skinnyforcollege:

(via thin4thewin)

this girl is so hot! im like weirdly attracted to her lol

Heartbreak hurts us

Sat, 10 Jul 2010 19:36:54 -0400

when it comes to losing weight. After a bad breakup or if you’re just sad and lonely you eat whatever makes you feel good. Trust me, I’ve been there. Fuck that actually, I AMMM there. Ladies we must remember no man is EVER worth ruining ourselves over. If anything we MUST keep in mind that we’re strong and we’re going to work what we’ve got and make it better so when he comes crawling back we can say

“I’m sorry dear, I’ve moved on to BETTER things.”

In the famous words of John Mayer,

“Now I’m going to dress myself for two

once for me, and once for someone new.

I’m going to do some things you’d never let me do,

Oh I‘m going to find another you <3”

WE CAN DO THIS!

July 10th, 2010 <3

Sat, 10 Jul 2010 19:32:46 -0400

I had a great start by after staying up late due to coffee till 2:00am I woke up and got to the gym by 9:30 (first stopping by robeks for a SMALL raspberry romance) I did the warm up bike for 7 minutes on the intermediate level then power walked on the treadmill for 10 minutes. I of course, would have stayed longer but my Body Flow class started at 10:05. I stayed the whole time, stretched and strengthened. I went straight home, showered, then prepared a packet of original quaker oatmeal with a few blueberries, almonds and a tsp of honey. I took a step backwards by smoking with my two good friends who stopped by making me obtain the munchies. I then was awful and had a peanut butter and marshmallow sandwich, followed by two stupid graham cracker/chocolate sandwich. (We clearly had way to much smores supplies) After sobering up a bit we went to a small get together for a friend and I had mostly fruit and pasta salad, not much of either. I stayed away from the desserts! I came home and cracked open a root beer. ANOTHER stupid mistake.

Oh well, the fact I went to the gym is a win regardless. I’ll probably make something small for dinner or not eat at all to compensate for the insane amount of gross carbs I consumed. Until tomorrow!

The Goal.

Sat, 10 Jul 2010 12:10:59 -0400

I’m 155, my goal is 125 by next year.

30 pounds. I haven’t been that weight since I was 13.

Being 17 (18 in ten days!!!) this is a big deal.

I could settle at 135 just because my body isn’t built to be skinny, I’m built to be short and slick. Highly unfortunate.

WE CAN DO THIS!

(Neither ladies are me, sorry to disapoint)

Why Such a harsh blog you ask?

Sat, 10 Jul 2010 11:44:06 -0400

The answer to this is because sometimes, “loving your body” isn’t enough. We all pick and poke at our bodies but when it comes down to it we know whether or not it’s time to do something about it. Guess whattttt….. it’s my time. I’m 155 pounds. You wouldn’t know it because I’m naturally built short and stocky so I hide my weight well. Nobody on this earth except me know my weight. This is all going to change for me, Here I’ll write exactly what I ate every single day and post my progress. The more I read and see how I feel good the more inspired I’ll be to do it.

ALERT. THIS WEIGHT LOSS WILL BE DONE IN A HEALTHY WAY. IF YOU’RE LOOKING FOR ANA TIPS GOOOO AWAY (and go eat a burger)

All my love,

Skinny Bitch, minus the skinny.